bits and pieces.
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S'pore
Gemini



unfolding stories.

coming and going.
bidding our goodbyes.
Emily / Irene
Shirlynn / Adam
Jun Wei / Huiqi

credits.
Design: doughnutcrazy
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References: magnette

Thursday, January 15, 2009
"A Little Too..." - posted by Jason at 10:48 PM
hmm.

went for my medicial appointment.
went to town to meet hq, karmen and her bf.
had Seoul Garden. very bloated. burps.
after that wanted to send hq home.
but end up going diff ways.
maybe i make her angry.
can see that she's not in the mood.
yet i still insist on sending her.
in the end i return her stuff
and walk separate ways.
at that moment i was cursing myself.
i just felt real fed up with myself.
i just cant make her smile.
or even laugh.
i just felt i am damn lousy person.
when i see her stone. or rather emo.
i know her heart is breaking.
i just can feel it.

i just dont feel right.
its like my heart is breaking too.

yes. i still like her.
just that i never told her.
cause at that time she still with him.
how could i say infront of her? -.-

yes. i still like her.
but what can i do?

i just cant throw the feeling away.
i still remember her saying to me that.
i just like her for a period of time.

but well. i want to said is.
she also dont know how i feel.
i never tell her i still like her.
how she know i only like her
for awhile? -.-

i know i am ugly.
i know she wont like
a ugly person like me.
but that doesnt mean
i cant like her?

i just dont have the confidence in me.
i just kept losing hopes.
losing faith in myself.

But I see you.
Sometimes I try to hide.
What I feel inside.

Tell me why.
You're so hard to forget.
Don't remind me.
I'm not over it.

Tell me why.
I can't seem to face the truth.
I'm just a little too not over you.

sigh.

next matters.

emily. its almost two weeks since she last contacted me.
i dont know.
i just want to give up.
i dont want to care.
i dont want to bother about it.
i am just way too tired.
i just hate it.
hate that she just dont get to understand me abit.
hate that she said i always giving excuses.
hate that she just come & go.
5 yrs going 6yrs friendship.
just went down to the drain
wasted.

i got tried to mend it up.
yet she seems not interested.
she said she's busy?
what i suppose to say?

fark it. i had enough problem
for my own.

i just farking hate myself now!

i hate my life now!

i hate everything about me!

bye!


sigh..........

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