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S'pore
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unfolding stories.

coming and going.
bidding our goodbyes.
Emily / Irene
Shirlynn / Adam
Jun Wei / Huiqi

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Friday, October 17, 2008
"When you're gone." - posted by Jason at 7:55 PM
Mon = soc training. i skipped.
Tue = cut hair. weapon training. nights out.
Wed = soc training. i skipped again.
Thur = weapon training. nights out.
Fri = soc test. i failed. book out.

home not sweet home.-.-
was rather nervous
while walking home.
cus i had this strong feeling.
something is wrong.-.-

reached home.
immediately on the com.

and i yea. i got it right.
they got tgt?
i dunno.
jus congrats to her.
and i suddenly lost my voice..
really kept very quiet.
my mum think i crazy..-.-
lost my appetite.-.-

i dont know.
i seems lost..-.-
lost faith in myself
lost confident.
lost the crazyness in me.
jus felt speechless.
didnt spoke a word
since i am at home.

watch the money not enough 2
on the com.
i didnt even laugh.-.-
although its funny.
but i just cant laugh it out.
no mood to laugh
at all.-.-

what's wrong with me?
i dont know.
i jus feel helpless.

no one will understand the pain.
i am going thru right now at
this very moment.
well. seeing her entries
all happy entries
is good for her.

well.
back to those smking
days.
although last entry i did
said i wanna cut down.
but well. dont think
anyone would even give a damn
to me. so yea.
even i die also nobody will care.
so yea.

i think i am in deep depression.-.-
while typing this entry. i jus broke down
into tears.-.-
wtf?
what's seriously wrong with me?-.-

adam told me to give up.
lisa told me to give up.
i jus couldnt give up.

its jus too deep.-.-
too deep to recover.

My tears run down like razorblades.

guys do cry too.-.-
but of cus not infront of pple.
and i am alone in the room.
so yea. nobody see.-.-
fark it.-.-

no wonder no msg from her this few days.
cus she's busy with someone else.
yea..

my hands is injure due to today's soc.-.-
tml still have to go vivo. sigh.
i dont know what to do if i see her.
i guess i will feel speechless like today.
we will see tml.

shall end here.

going down for a walk.
might not be back soon.

cheers.

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