Saturday, October 04, 2008
"I'm holding on to something" - posted by Jason at 1:08 AM
hmmm. was rotting at home. till 3pm. sian. had dinner around 4plus. meet her at 10pm.
had supper. at terra cafe. send her home. no more bus. so took cab home.
something happened today. qurreal with my mum. becus of my younger bro. show temper for nth. well this kind of kid. dunno when he will lose his temper.
makes me suddenly lost my temper also. i dont know why. mayb i wasnt really in the mood already. so i shouted at my mum.
argh. i felt guilty afterward. i mean. i can see my mum work so hard. have to walk around to sell yakult. i can see her tiredness yet i dont seems to understand. and just shouted at her.
my stress mode soon gonna turn into depressed mode. anyway. i think its already half depressed
so many things happened. i really dont know i still can take it. how i wish jus jump down the building jus suan le.-.-
everyday is like a torture to me. although i can act as nth happened.
but when i am alone things starts to come to my brain.
today i saw her walking to the shop many times. my heart jus jump double. whenever she walks past. how i wish she could walk even more times.
yet there is nth i can do abt it.
i wan to ask her. but dare not.
sigh..
it tears me up inside seeing you ignoring me. I wish that I could tell you something
I won’t give up. If it takes forever
No matter what I do I can’t make you feel better If only I could find the answer
Jason Ng