bits and pieces.
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S'pore
Gemini



unfolding stories.

coming and going.
bidding our goodbyes.
Emily / Irene
Shirlynn / Adam
Jun Wei / Huiqi

credits.
Design: doughnutcrazy
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References: magnette

Friday, October 10, 2008
"不要你離開." - posted by Jason at 11:56 PM
mon = did nothing. nua.
Tue = nua. nites out.
Wed = soc training. nua.
Thur. = turn out. guard duty.
Fri = nua. book out.

that is basically
what i did in camp.-.-
booked out
in the afternoon.
no dinner again.

wanted to go
down vivo.
but went back
home instead.
nua nua nua.
till evening.
went around
neighbourhood
with adam.

had my first meal
at 730pm.
these days
no appetite. =\

yes yes.
i had done
the same
idiot mistake.
moron mistake.
all becus of my
stupid brain.
idiotic brain.

i am always
stupid.
useless.
idiot.
moron.
always makes
people angry
with words.
i said or questions
that i asked.

i dont blame
anyone.
but myself.

the sadness
inside me
just wouldnt
want to go
away.

its has being
stuck in me
for quite some
time.

i want to confide
in someone.
yet there's
no one i can turn
to.

i dont wanna bother
my buddy.
cus he. himself
also having problems.

so i rather keep it
myself.
not adding any
burden to anyone.

was looking thru
the msges that
she send me
during my last outfield.
those msg really can make
me laugh.

how i wish those
days remains.

so i wouldnt
be so depressed.

but. life is like this.
have to face reality.

how i wish
i dont have
a stupid brain.

regretted saying/asked
things that makes her angry.
or whatever.

regretted all my
action/attidude
that i showed.

everything is
too late to save.

all i can do is
live with those
regrets.



the above thing
was typed
out in my hp
when i was in camp.
while smking.
while alone.
while facing the trees.
while stoning.
while doing reflection.

my bunkmates
think i am crazy.-.-

but they dont know
how i feel inside me.

and they forever wont know.

had being smking
far too much
this week.
cant helped
when i am
depressed
mood.-.-

i jus cant control
my mind. i will
start to imagine
things the moment
if i am alone.-.-
and i dont seem to
have a way to control
it.

i..

shall stop here.

cheers.

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