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bits and pieces.
Jason NgS'pore Gemini
unfolding stories.
coming and going.
bidding our goodbyes.
Emily / IreneShirlynn / Adam Jun Wei / Huiqi
credits.
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Monday, May 19, 2008
hmm."beyond cure." - posted by Jason at 2:10 AM i dont know what to update. i feel like smashing things. its being a crazy week for me. i scolded my best buddy over a person. i think i am too much. sigh. i guess i am far beyond cure. no one can save me. except...... sigh. no cure for my temper. no cure for my naive. what my buddy said sound quite true. but i think the problem lies with me. i am too stubborn. like a cow. i guess i didnt moved on. i tried to changed. but it nv worked. i tot i already moved on. which it didnt. once again. i am avoiding. avoiding the truth. avoiding everyone. hiding in my small room. i guess. things have changed. ever since that day. she didnt replied. i knew. nothing gonna be the same as that day. blame it on me. blame on my silly. blame on my naive. blame everything on me. i cant help it. i was so lost. when i was on the way back to camp. so lost that i kept smking. i nearly.. nearly..... ended. i dont know what i was thinking. at that point of time. i was quiet. keeping everything inside me. i wanted to sound out. but i couldnt open my golden mouth. only kept shaking my head. tears kept dropping. i couldnt control my feelings. i couldnt control my emotional. i couldnt control my mind. i couldnt control my tears. i couldnt control my sadness. i wish she could send me an sms. telling me that she's fine. telling me that she's coming back to me. but i know it wont happen. nowdays. i get so fed up easily. i dont know why. i get fustrated so easily. i am tired. mentally and physically. i guess i lost alot of thing. in a week. my phone is so quiet nowdays. unlike the past. how i wish i can go back to the past. but i know its too late.. everything is too late for me. to save. beyond cure. my mind cant stop thinking of her. sigh.. |